Small Gifts, Big Gratitude (2015 in Review; Welcome the New Year Ahead)

One of my favorite shots from a 2015 photo session with my super talented friend Jade of Tripshooter.com

One of my favorite shots from a 2015 photo session with my super talented friend Jade of Tripshooter.com

Most places in Paris were closed today – shops, markets, museums.

Out on the street by 9 am (early for me on a normal day, unheard of the morning after New Year’s Eve), I walked several quiet blocks before another person even crossed my path. After a winter so far blessed by soft temperatures and sun, clouds and cold have returned to the city. But the still, chilled air warmed me. Everything was calm. All was peace.

Though still dreaming of the *warm* peace in Greece.

Though still dreaming of *this* kind of peace in Greece.

By a couple hours later, my neighborhood had yawned awake. Regulars traded stories over coffee at my corner café, rows of fruit beckoned from the fronts of a few epiceries, the rogue bakery near the metro displayed sandwiches and sweet treats. Their goods are not the best, but their weird hours comfort me – one can sometimes forgive a greasy pain au chocolat when it’s possible to procure the pastry at midnight. Or on New Year’s Day.

I also went to Zurich, though that wasn't nearly as exciting (random lamps in the park, notwithstanding).

I also went to Zurich, though that wasn’t nearly as exciting (random lamps in the park, notwithstanding).

The majority of stores were shuttered, mind you, but these signs of life made me smile. I love the laid-back nature of my neighborhood. More of these open pockets exist when so much else is closed.

To my surprise, I stumbled across a Franprix that was also open. Score. Who ever expected to get groceries on January 1? Unprepared to do a big shop, I corralled a modest number of items up to checkout. “16.56€” the cashier said, “though you have 15.26€ on your carte de fidelité.”

“As in, I can use the 15.26 to pay?”

(A loyalty card shouldn’t warrant much confusion – a straightforward concept, yes – but at the Franprix I normally frequent, they don’t seem to understand how their system works. I’ve stymied more than one employee when trying to employ my accrued points. Once when I handed over a 5€ off coupon that the store had given me on my previous trip, the cashier looked bewildered, then annoyed, then asked “qu’est-ce que c’est ce truc?” What is this thing. A manager had to be called).

So yeah, I was delighted when this cashier-angel announced I could immediately apply the credit to my purchase.

“That leaves 1.30€ due,” she said.

“It’s like a gift!” I said.

“It is,” she agreed. “Bonne année!

I saw magical trees in the small village of Sainte-Sévère-sur-Indre this summer.

I saw magical trees in the small village of Sainte-Sévère-sur-Indre this summer.

Waltzing out with my happy new year’s bounty  – (almost) free food is enough to make me giddy – I continued on my journey. Rounding the corner on Boulevard de Charonne, I suddenly saw a Christmas tree falling from the sky. I couldn’t say whether its descent was fast or slow – it seemed both, really. An elegant dive.

A pleasing spectacle, an unexpected pine tree cutting through the air, but I did think quite clearly: “wow, that’s dangerous sport throwing a tree out a window.” Slow day notwithstanding, it’s usually a busy street.

For some reason, I hardly slowed though I was heading straight toward the event. The tree landed with a simple whoosh and I realized I’d been holding my breath waiting to discover what kind of sound a dropped tree from that height would make. Then a redheaded man picked up the sapin and pulled it to the curb. Ah, the lookout! I was relieved.

I caught his eye and he shrugged amiably and offered a sheepish smile.

“It’s faster that way,” he said.

Indeed. The tree looked to have been launched from the 6th or 7th floor at least.

Feel free here.

Feel free here.

Just steps later, now near Pere Lachaise, an older man walked by briskly. He seemed to be looking at me, though whether he was a bit unstable or another nice surprise awaited I couldn’t quite tell. All I could make out was the word “cadeau” repeated over and over again. Gift. Gift. Gift. 

Or present, present, present, if you prefer.

I’m not a huge fan of New Year’s resolutions; I often just feel my way toward a theme or a vague longing at the most. This year, several people have suggested picking one word, which sounded intriguing, though I found myself resisting that slightly, as well.

But something about these small encounters crystallized into my New Year’s wish. On my walk I had been pondering how “intention” seemed to be the one word growing brighter. Sometimes it’s unclear just what my intentions are so the prospect can get hazy, but that was just it: I want more of my energy to be directed. I want to work with purpose and intent.

These tiny surprises that shook me today, though – they were enchanting. They were joyful. Serendipity is necessary, too.

The memorial at one of the sites of violence, La Belle Equipe.

The memorial at one of the sites of violence, La Belle Equipe.

2015 was a year bookended by horrors in Paris – in my very arrondissement, the 11th, where I live. Just one week into the new year and the killings at Charlie Hebdo and the kosher supermarket shocked the country. Then this November the coordinated terror attacks on Friday the 13th slayed so many more.

In between, I watched news in my other home, the States, and saw more violence, by police with unchecked power, hateful political speech, and in a year with more than one mass shooting per day, by too many people armed to the teeth.

Back in Europe a massive refugee crisis saw wave after wave of suffering people wash up onto these shores. And all around, everywhere – from university students gunned down in Garisa to bombs in Beirut – so much sorrow and death.

I lost my words for awhile. What to do in the face of so much pain? These huge issues left me feeling lost and bereft.

But on the personal side, I experienced wonderful things. Two of my dreams even came true.

  • My first novel found a publisher. Yes, four years after I first announced it as finished on this here blog (ahem, watch those optimistic claims, and whoa, how the years careen!), my book finally found a fine home with Queen’s Ferry Press. I am (a wee bit terrified, but mostly, overwhelmingly) thrilled.  There’s now more of a wait (pub date is April 2017!), but I’ve grown pretty patient, I must say. I will share more with you when we’re closer and there’s more news to tell!
I gave this as my current photo when the press asked for one, but I think I'm going to smile in my next one ;)

I gave this as my current photo when the press asked for one, but I think I’m going to smile bigger in my next one.

 

  • I became a dual national. Friends, I never thought I’d get to say this, but it’s true: I am French. After a long process (see patience evoked above), I acquired French nationality in 2015. My naturalization ceremony was held in November – just one week after the attacks. A poignant fact: there were 64 of us newly naturalized citizens at the ceremony. We came from 30 different countries.Vive la France.

    Naturalization collage
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    On Christmas Eve, I defrosted my fridge and deep cleaned my bathroom – part of my preparation for starting the new year fresh. Then my beau came over with Thai takeout and we watched the film “Tomorrowland.” So simple. So easy. The no-stress holiday. “It’s one of the most beautiful Christmases I’ve ever spent,” he said.

    This is it. Tiny pleasures. Love. What gifts.

    “How we spend our days is, of course, how we spend our lives,” wrote Annie Dillard.

    What if we focused on these gifts, on love, on what we are doing every day?

    What if we stayed awake, stayed alive to all the small beauties surrounding us?

    Flying trees, yummy takeout food, butterfly kisses, and so many things I cannot yet conceive.

    Intention: big gratitude.

    Present, present, present, said the man on the street today.

    I’ll stay present in the moment, in this world.

    With these hopes I welcome 2016.

    Peace, love, and light to you.

    Gift, gift, gift.

21 Responses to “Small Gifts, Big Gratitude (2015 in Review; Welcome the New Year Ahead)”


  1. 1 Tina January 2, 2016 at 5:14 am

    Beautiful. Thank you for posting!

  2. 3 I Say Oui January 2, 2016 at 7:36 am

    Looking forward to reading your book!

  3. 5 k_sam January 2, 2016 at 12:14 pm

    Beautiful post! Wishing you lots of peace and gratitude in 2016!🙂

  4. 7 poetsdoublelife January 2, 2016 at 2:05 pm

    Great post! Congratulations on finding a home for your book and for making France a home. I live vicariously through your adventures and wish you all the best in 2016.

    • 8 paris (im)perfect January 3, 2016 at 12:48 am

      Thanks so much, Pam. I live vicariously through *you*! You accomplished SO MUCH this year and I look forward to hearing how your new job and new home suit you! Wishing you a super new year. New adventures ahead!

  5. 9 Emma Bentley January 2, 2016 at 3:06 pm

    Happy New Year, Sion. Looking forward to seeing what it has in store for you.🙂

  6. 11 Julie Christine January 2, 2016 at 3:32 pm

    Your intention inspires me. Gratitude and Presence. Everything else is just noise.

    Peace and joy to you, Sion. And so much love!

    • 12 paris (im)perfect January 3, 2016 at 12:51 am

      Thank you, my friend. Indeed. I really want to cut out the noise. Gratitude and presence in 2016. Yes. Can’t wait to see how this new year unfolds for you. So many exciting things ahead! Can’t wait to read your book (soon, soon, soon!) Much love.

  7. 13 hmunro January 2, 2016 at 4:55 pm

    CONGRATULATIONS on your publishing deal, on your dual citizenship, and on actually getting some benefit out of your carte de fidelité! 🙂 I always love your posts, but this one in particular for the wonderful lessons you’ve drawn from the past year. May we all follow your example in the year ahead and live in the present, with an intention of gratitude. May the year ahead be your happiest yet, Sion!

  8. 15 buffyschilling January 2, 2016 at 5:39 pm

    Happy New year! Congratulations on the French naturalization! I am looking forward to reading your book when it comes out. 2015 was a good year for you. I hope Paris will be peaceful now. So much seems to be happening. I could picture the places you mentioned, especially the bakery where I had a hot croissant; such a good memory to have.

    I hope 2016 is even better for you.

    • 16 paris (im)perfect January 3, 2016 at 12:54 am

      Thank you, Buffy! I am grateful for the year just passed and looking forward to see what 2016 has in store. And yes! So cool that you know exactly where I was talking about! I’m so glad your trip here remains such a good memory.

      Wishing you all the best in 2016.

  9. 17 Ale Rincin January 14, 2016 at 8:17 am

    I’m so excited that your book has a publication date!! I have been waiting to read it for years. Also hoping to see you in September – I’ll be in Paris and hope we can get together.
    My word for the year is – present. Though I contemplated intention for quite awhile. Kisses, Ale

  10. 19 asthaguptaa February 18, 2016 at 7:49 am

    I am so glad that I discovered you through ms aligned🙂 Love your energy and passion! Congratulations for the citizenship and the book deal!


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